Crying During Sex
Ethel Cain Song Lyrics

I sing the lord's euthanasia blues

When I take you and your brother in the back pew

Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick

Tradition's ligature marks always yellow through.

I lied when I said I didn't want you

In no time, you'll forget the way we were supposed to be

Asking what I'm on this time, holding on to you like I do

Like we're the only people in the world god left to mind to.

Two drowning coals won't ever light

But if I ask you to, you'll warm the night.

If I want you like I said I'd never do

I would hold my breath and sit down next to you

Terrified you'll bite the hand that needs you

And right now I need you

I don't know what happened

I don't know what happened

I was young and sweet

And then something happened

Something overwhelming

Something everlasting.

Time drags on

I hate him for the time he's gone

I've been here for weeks, I've been here for years

I've been here too long

I forgot what stop means

Either I drink it or the boat sinks

It's easy for him to get out of me

What I've been praying will get out of me.

Will I always be crying during sex with you

All my dreams take place in heaven where it's quiet, lying next to you

Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises between my thighs, look me deep in my eyes like I'm a river worth wading

And if I'm crying, it's because I'm in love.

And I could love you if I tried

And I'm trying

I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying.